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The Most Important Thing In My Life |
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2009-10-09
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The Most Important Thing In My Life
As of today I am an at- home mom. Up until 9:00 this morning I had a great job that I loved, a caring boss and wonderful friends. It was a job that I am very good at. The problem is that it wasn't the most important thing in my life.
I have a husband that I have divorced once and almost twice who I have just asked to come home. I have a 15 year old who after spending a year in juvenile detention has not been making any better decisions. I have a 12 year old who while grounded decided to go to a volleyball game, because "she felt like it". (knowing that I would not be home until 6:00.) I have a 9 year old who when dropped off at the school at 8:00 doesn't make it into class until 9:00. I also have an anxiety disorder which makes it harder for me to hold it all together.
I went in this morning to talk to my boss, not knowing at all what I was going to say to her. I told her my laundry list of all the things that I felt I had to be responsible for. She looked at me and without missing a beat told me that I needed to go take care of my children. She told me that in the grand scheme of things "this" was only a job, and it would be there for me if I ever decided to go back. I took about a half hour to clean out my desk, give all my hugs and say my good -byes.
I drove straight to the school to see my youngest son. I have listened to your show for over a year now. I have to admit it was mostly to criticize your opinions. Apparently something must have rubbed off on me because here I am. My kids came home to their Mom today instead of an empty home and I got hugs from my youngest, my oldest was glad I was there, but my daughter of course thinks I'm stupid. I have a lot of work to do.
We all walked a few blocks to the library and got library cards. The only one of your books they had was "Bad Childhood, Good life." I don't necessarily think I had a bad childhood but I figure this was as good a place to start as any. They are ordering copies of your other books for me to read. If I do what I've always done then I will get what I have always got. I know that I want more for myself and for my family, so I have to change something.
R.
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