I recently got caught and now have to face a demon that’s haunted me for years. I’m retired from the healthcare field, but over the years, I started stealing medications to calm me. I began small, but eventually the missing pills were noticed and I had to confess to what I had done. I’ve been thinking about why I would so blatantly and intentionally risk my reputation and standing within our community.
Surprisingly, there have been some rewards, because I had to bring my family together to confess, and while I expected disappointment, rejection, isolation and criticism, I got support, encouragement and love, as well as a house full of open and honest emotions that had been bubbling up inside of all of us. I’m entering into a twelve-step program and meeting with addiction counselors, but there are still court dates and possible prison time ahead of me. My entire life may be disrupted, and this is going to be a difficult journey, but a small part of me is excited about entering a new phase without the lying and stealing. I’m also scared to death.
There’s one more thing…the day this all came down, I was driving my car through a car wash, and the machine jammed. A big red light that said “STOP” flashed and made a loud sound. I started sobbing. The car wash guy had to restart the machine and when I went through the wash a second time, I turned on your program. A call was on where you had to tell a woman to “STOP…just STOP!” My jaw dropped as I said “OK, OK – I hear you!” So that car wash not only cleaned my car, but, with your help, it started cleaning my soul.
A Car Wash Helped Me Clean My Soul
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